My baby boy is finally going to Kindergarten on time, just as he should, this next school year! I am so torn in all of this because I fear that he is not ready. Academically, he is ready. Socially, not so much. I trust his teachers and their opinions and expertise on this matter. However, I have this niggling little feeling of disaster.
I fear that I am going to receive phone call after phone call every day saying, "Mrs. My Quirky Son, this is the school principal. SuperE has disappeared from the building." or "Mrs. My Quirky Son, this is the school principal. SuperE has been kicking, hitting, and biting the teacher." or "Mrs. My Quirky Son, this is the school principal. SuperE does not qualify for extra help because the State of Ohio has cut funding." These are things I actually dream about happening and even scarier, funding being cut is happening. What is the future for my quirky son?
I am worried that he will go to school and the other kids in his class won't understand his quirks and that they will end up picking on him. Nothing tears this Mama Bear's heart more than when one of her kids or any kid are getting bullied or picked on.
I worry that he isn't going to be able to concentrate enough to learn. That when they test him, he won't do so well. I have so many questions about this. Are they going to have a helper in his classroom? Honestly, I don't think that he is going to be able to sit down long enough without pacing, circling, or hiding under tables without an adult to sit by him constantly. He is barely able to do this now. I think it goes okay because there are many helpers in his classroom. I don't remember there being any extra, trained helpers when KK was in that grade.
I am a full time working Mom. How am I going to balance working full time, making sure he gets what he needs, making sure my daughter gets what she needs, and keeping my home in order? There are just not enough hours in the day to get it all done. Not to mention I am a wife too...how am I going to keep my marriage together? I am feeling like my life is spinning out of control. I pray and I write and I do calm breathing exercises...I am about to break. Maybe my fear isn't related to SuperE going to Kindergarten, after all. Perhaps this fear inside of me is simply of failure.
My Aspie is in First Grade, and kids are so sweet and kind at this age. No one picks on her, no one even realizes she is different and she hasn't figured it out yet either <3
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